unpredictable journal

30 December 2007

Just read up your and went to read up my Nov entries. Did I really mention about them that much that makes u so jealous? Hmm... didn't know that things weren't getting smoothly for you until you told me that night. I'm not good in consoling you when you're down, instead I keep on saying things that makes you more upset, m really sorry. Maybe, I'm just being direct. Or I'm selfish, I want people to be like me. Or maybe I'm proud, I look down on people? I admit I do not know how exactly you feel. Why not, you just tell me what you want?

Everytime Valencia and I tried to organise a meet up session for the six of us, there sure will be one person won't be able to turn up. Now Zann becomes mummy, she gonna be busy looking after her baby, I understand. But how about the rest of you? Really feels very tired in organising a meet up session. Why not u girls plan, and let me know when the meet up date can?

I've got group of friends to hang out with. Baby they all are my clubbing friends cuz we all stay near each other. Kelly n Qin are my close friends whom I always share my problems with them. And you girls are girls whom I love shopping with. Don't jealous, cuz each of you weights the same in my heart. Cheer up.

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I think I really very useless. I've been staying at my sister place since May till now, but I haven't give any rental yet. I really feel bad. Yet my bro-in-law always the one helping me to vacuum and mop my room. Feel totally embarrassed. Think I should start giving rental le bahs.

Oh well, planning for 2008. I think most probably the trip to Thai around Mar and Taiwan around Oct will be on. Since the person I going with is Kelly. She has been very steady one and I really love going tour with her, cuz she never afraid to ask passer-by when we needs help. Haa... even she can't communicates well with the people there, she'll still try her best. I really look forward to the trips we planned. But frankly speaking, I really scare that either one of the trip will be cancelled. Cuz afterall, you're still schooling... financial wise...

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Time really flies, friends and I are all turning 21st this year on our birthday. =) So this coming Saturday will be going to Hau's birthday party @ her place. Hmm... still thinking what to get for her.

I hope I'll luv myself more

12:23

29 December 2007

This morning was so busy yet vouchers so lil'. Hmm... end day couldn't balance cash cuz officer forgot to take out my coin bags. Frightened me. Sweat* Then when balancing voucher, one voucher missing. Search the entire place where I stood still didn't manage to find it. I swear I search the pigeon for many times but I couldn't find it until I touch*4, then I found it's 'standing', 'laying' on the pigeon. Glad, when I was about to leave CSM asked me to bring back the candy for lil' niece and asked me to join them for lunch. =( End up I left only around 2pm. Haix.

Went to JP to help mummy pay her bill, think sing post changed their layout. I joined the wrong Q. But luckily, was a short one. If not I sure gone mad. Haha... one counter was closed, waited till pretty long norhx. Sighs. After that head back home, dump all my clothes into the washing machine and wanna take a nap but lil' niece came in. Asked her to revise her poem and reward her with chocolate. End up, she bought lots of her favourite back home. =) Then I really very exhausted and took a nap all the way from 6-9pm.

By right, now should be outside with friends. But cancelled.

Wondering when 5566 album gonna release, I like my blog song so much.

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:49

This morning accompanied Kelly to Evolution Hub to get her hairdo. Nice nice worx. Then head back home together with her and an hour later went out to JP to meet Shu Yi. She was late, and I waited for 20mins++ =( Alright, shall give her a chance, forgive her this time eh? Hmm... walked only a few steps and Percie spot me! Chat with her awhile and head to the direction where Shu Yi was. She bought a mascara for 32bucks, damn she's so so so rich!

After that, went to Long John to have our dinner. Hmm... don't really like eating there. But she said she miss eating LJ, so no choice eh? Haa... chat a lot, nice catch up with her. Love hanging out with her though she's 3years older than me. =)

I hope I'll luv myself more

00:00

26 December 2007

Overslept this morning thought that m gonna be late for work. But surprisingly I reached work place around 8.25am was 10mins early than usual. =) Is like finally, I made it. I did a successful referrals of more than 50k to Robin and I can see the big*2 smile on his face. Hey guy, don't ask me to refer any 50k referral to you le hor, I already did. =D I was so happy that I counted wrongly for my mid day balancing. Yet he still ask me to open an account for this customer. Heck care my cash, locked and open the account for him. Recount my cash then realised that I short count 4pieces of 100. Hees. End day, YYC couldn't balance her cash. Initially, she told CO that the 10K I gave her seems short of 1piece. I sweat quickly pack my cash and do my end day balancing. Then she realised that something wrong with the system. Manage to spot the mistake. Mentor keyed twice of customer deposit, reverse out.

So shitty me, Joyce asked me to print out my leave balance but I refused. Knock off walked pass her place she asked me to print for her. Try to get into Self Service but forgotten password, access being locked. Then wanna go to EAIM to unlock but forgotten password, hand itchy went to try 3 times and being lock. The whole LAN ID was being disabled. Guess tomorrow morning won't be able to open counter. Sobs.

Taking bus back to JP then jie jie called me. She said that she was asking lil' niece to bring my clothes into my room. Their conversation:

lil' niece: "Why u never help ah yi fold"

my sis: "No need la, let her fold herself"

lil' niece: "I don't want to bring in if you don't help her fold"

my sis: "Don't like this la, mummy tired, let her fold herself"

lil' niece: "Okay lor, I fold for ah yi"

Then she starts folding. I really can't believe cuz she don't even fold her own clothes. Haa... so sweet of her. Love her lots!

Damn having eyes irritation for 3days. Hell... itchy nehx.

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:06

25 December 2007

First and foremost, Merry X'mas! Think I won't be able to meet Baby up unless Jas is free, they are glued together. =) So X'mas eve was staying at home sleeping, perhaps... m tired eh? Today's Christmas but m staying at home again, cuz meeting was cancelled as friend not feeling well. Hmm... hope she feels better now.

Hopefully NYE meet up with Baby n Jas to Cafe Del Mar will be on.

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:43

23 December 2007

Friday branch dinner was fabulous but the person who paid for the dinner was late. =( And it was so nice of boss to get each one of us (frontline and SGC) a esprit pouch. I love it lots, but the design wasn't very nice norhx. Nvm... is the thought that counts.

Oh yepp, sometimes it's not true that walking in and and out of backroom means work lesser. I've got 159vouchers on Friday whereas YYC only got 130++ and ASS only got 114. See the difference? Sometimes we've got lesser vouchers is because we counted bulk cash, or we handle difficult and complicated transaction. Not that we're slow eh? So think before u pass a remark.

Love Saturday so much, but I hate to be @ premier counter lor. Everyday 've to count his money. Hais... get rid of coins already, the next day sure 've coins again.

I hope I'll luv myself more

16:43

20 December 2007

This morning was raining cats and dogs. It's such a nice weather to sleep eh? But too bad, I meet up Kelly to gym and I was late. Hees, sorry girl! Hmm, inside the gym was for an hour plus was like so shiok? =D After which, meet up girls for lunch at Nihon Mura just located right below the gym. Then we head to PM to Mac and ordered ice creams. Reach home around 5pm plus and thought that I can meet Shu Yi for dinner but she already left JP. Too bad.

Just received call from kor kor asking me to transfer him back the 50bucks. So I went down to the nearest posb atm. Came up I saw mummy was so happy. Who knows, something happened at home again and she got herself injured.

By right, meeting school girls for k session. But... sighs... always like this. Never ever manage to meet out.

Yesterday night by right wanna meet up with baby and babe. But they decided not to meet up. Hmm... hopefully able to meet them up on the X'mas eve.

Nothing much at work, just that I'm so stupid. Till now still needs to EC for transaction I done wrongly. Damn it.

I hope I'll luv myself more

19:34

17 December 2007

Yesterday bought lots of things, and pack everything into my big bag. This morning was tidying up my room and I saw my old ZA eyeliner, I thought I bought one last night but I couldn't find it. Immediately I sms Gina see if it's with her. But she told me that it's not inside the x'mas paper bag. So I thought I accidentally throw it away when I was packing stuffs into my bag last night. After taking a look at the receipts, I found out that I actually took and put back the eyeliner @ watson. Stupid, think... gotta make a trip to JP again either later after work or... Tuesday to get some more stuffs.

Shit, can't sleep cuz I just woke up not long from nap. Gotta wake up early later cuz blouse haven't iron yet. If overslept still iron blouse sure late for work. Sighs, m always like this.

Alright can't wait for the Thursday PH to arrive, cuz I definitely needs more rest. Hees.

I hope I'll luv myself more

00:23

16 December 2007

Alright I shall starts the post by my expenses:

1. HDB Mortgage Loan - $230

2. Mummy Allowance - $200

3. Ez-link card top up - $60

4. Lingeries - $39.76

5. SG Mascara 20% off - $7.92

6. Lunch @ Mac - $5

7. Fox: Tank Kint - $16.15 15% off

8. Fox: Sweater Kint - $50.15 15% off

9. ZA set - $33.50

10. Ladies use - $4.45

11. Cleansing wipes - $8.30

12. Aussino bed sheet fitted - $12.95 50% off

13. Dinner @ KFC - $5.50

14. N95 - $688

15. Cabby Fares from WM to JW - $9.80

Grand Total: $1345

Ever since a lil' kiddo till now, I've never spent that much before. Hell, is damn lots. But I feel contended. I paid for my own things with my hard earn money. Now bonus finished up, waiting for SBS Transit to compensate me. And I swear from today's onwards, I'll save up my salary. Hmm... maybe this month a lil' tough cuz got lots of PH. Planning to go club with baby and babes on 19, 24, and 31st of this month. Most probably to club and I definitely gonna drink s much s I could. Maybe I'll like to quit drinking from year 2008 onwards. Let's see if I'm able to do it.

Alright, should have a good sleep so that tomorrow I'll be able to wake up @ 9am and starts exploring how good other people said about N95 8GB. Frankly speaking, I don't really quite like it, I still preferred K850i which I saw a guy bought that model. Couldn't decide on my own, so I got N95 as many said it's much worth than K850i. In the sense of what I do not know. I just know that 189 told me if comparing photo-taking and music K850i will be better. N95 is good cuz of GPS. Whatever, I already bought the phone, shall not regret eh?

Coming month bills gonna be expensive. Add on one more bill exp. =(

I hope I'll luv myself more

01:28

15 December 2007

Was being awake by the call from old man around 8am. =( Then lil' niece comes into the room and wake me up, calling me da ben zhu. Haha... she always called us like this when we refused to wake up. Hmm... woke up @ around 11am? Did my laundry and tidy up my room till now. Alright, shall blog more tonight. Going out to buy my phone, still not sure which phone to get. =l

I hope I'll luv myself more

10:22

13 December 2007

Hmm... how should I start the entry? Oh, last night Alfred called me up and as usual we had a good chat till around 3.30am plus. Guess I was a lil' famished that I couldn't get back to sleep immediately when we hung up the phone. I was turning left and right on the bed for an hour before I doze off. I manage to wake up on time and left home on time. But the traffic seems moving a lil' slower this morning that resulted I was 10mins late for the morning briefing. Was feeling sad when I get to know that I've to SA for the entire day. Not even have a break to cover lunch @ the counter. =( Was so free in the morning that CSM actually asked me to read up the complain & compliment feedbacks which consists of 14-17pages long. Yepp manage to read through most of it. But guess I forgotten most of it as well eh? Hees.

Elaine was out for lunch together with Lilian, so I took the opportunity to borrow her terminal to check my mailbox. Hmm, just few weeks didn't open up the mailbox already filled up with tons of mails to read up. In between, was being asked to open company accounts. =( But no choice, it's an order! In between of the account opening, CSM called me to handle those peoples standing around my area. Was a lady delivered the piggy bank over.

Happy @ work was because of colleague like Hui Jun who logged off and lend me her terminal when she's out for lunch with Robin. Unlike Elaine, she seems a lil' pissed off when I seek her permission to use her terminal. Oh well, I've to be thick-skinned and endure otherwise I won't be able to get my work done. =) Hui Jun is our branch PFC, but everytime when I've to open accounts for foreign workers with appointment, she always helped me out without fail. I'm really thankful to her.

Guess I'm down to luck, I really 've problem communicating with foreign workers. And because of one customer I met this afternoon, took up an hour just to open a new account and close the existing one. I was so fed up yet manager can questioned me back "Wow.. 2 accounts, u took so long?" Damn, he don't even know whats happening. I had been occupied with company's account the whole morning and 've a headache with this Indian customer yet he still gave this kind of remark. Went for lunch only @ 3pm was so mad that I lost my appetite and had few puffs before I went back to branch. Reach the front door of the branch, the supervisor of foreign workers stood right infront of me and asked if I'm the one who's going to help his workers to open account. Sian right? Just came back from break, already 've things pending for you to do. Is like WTH lor. Luckily I've Kelly around to help me, otherwise... I guess I might breakdown halfway.

End day helped to open corporate accounts again. Guide Kelly a lil', as mentor haven't really taught her all the things that she should look out for before opening. And really appreciate her helps once again.

Finish up with filing and usual end day duties, took cabby down to OC center together with Robin. The training starts around 6.30pm and ends around 9pm which suppose to ends @ 8pm. Though is a tiring evening for me especially I had only a few hours of sleep last night, I still enjoyed the entire training. I swear, I really loved this training as compared to the others I attended last time. Is so much different. I heard non-stop of laughter. So can you people think how great the facilitators had conducted the whole training?

Took cabby back home, had my shower and down here to blog the entire day. Hmm... didn't eat my dinner, cuz asked jiejie not to packet my share. Cuz I'm real exhausted that I don't feel like eating. And for that I shed away one kilo. =)

Tomorrow after work, shopping spree! Bonus day finally arrived!

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:11

12 December 2007

CSM always like this, ask for relief teller then end up having extra staffs and wanna send me out to relief. But I'm glad that none of the branches he offered to need any staff. So I stayed @ my own branch. There're still many things I haven't come across before, and every single day I learnt new things. I felt so insulted for the remark he said. I just want to double confirm before I open the wrong account also cannot? Not that I don't use my brain to think, is just that I wanna to be more careful, more cautious, more kiasu, more kiasi... also wrong? The rest can make mistakes, I can't. The rest 've the right to speak up, I don't 've. The rest 've a choice, I do not 've. Whatever the rest said, u take in. Whatever I said is always wrong. Pissed off.

I not sure how long I can still hang on there, but I hope I can endure for another 4-5months. I'll resign right after taking my 2nd bonus. But if I really can't endure any more, then I shall take up what he offers me. After all, accounts job is what I've been looking for.

Tomorrow after work gotta attend premium banking training @ OC center. =( cuz it ends @ 8pm =) cuz can claim OT and learn new things. Hope time flies fast.

Can't wait for the 15th to come, bonus bonus bonus!

Before I get my bonus, I shall 've a good cry.

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:00

09 December 2007

Yesterday went to watch Carpe Diem concert held @ Biopolis. Comparing Alexandra and JW, performance, I think Alexandra one would be more impressive. When lil' niece walked out to the front stage with other childrens, she was looking around and trying to spot for us. Even the concert ended, she didn't manage to find us. Haa... after that, brother in law said that he wanna bring lil' niece to play. I suggested science center, yepp we took cabby there. Watched the Hurricane and explored around inside the SC. Brought lil' niece to water work to play with water and guess she enjoyed herself. She was so exhausted that she fall asleep when her eyes closed.

Woke up this morning to do my one week laundry, is tiring man! Was raining when I came out from the bathroom. Sianz 1/2, scare that my working clothes won't dry. Luckily tomorrow have a day off. Hmm... wondering will I be able to handle my lil' niece tomorrow. =) Looking forward to this Saturday cuz m going with Nana to get my new phone!

X'mas is coming, means a brand new year is ahead of us. Gonna think of my NY resolutions. =D

I hope I'll luv myself more

17:56

07 December 2007

Yeppies! Finally a week is gonna pass soon and I'm so so so looking forward to the coming week. Hees, bonus is coming on the way eh? Hooray! =)

Manage to took an off day tomorrow to attend my lil' niece performance @ somewhere near TB. Alright, hope the school puts up a good performance. Guess after her performance, m gonna shop for present for my babe, Jas'. Didn't manage to get her a cake ley, jialat... been busy with work eh? Sorries! Hmm... after that I shall get back home to do my one week laundry =( Guess I would be dead beat by then, shall took a nappy before heading down to her house for the birthday celebration. I miss her mom cooking too, one year only get to go over there during CNY. = )

Hmm... nothing much today. Just that I hate him so much to come @ that hour with lots of cheques for clearing. Damn it. N Joyce don't even bother to help me. Was so pissed off that I gave out 2 original vouchers to him. Luckily tomorrow is my off day, otherwise... he's gonna nag @ me again. Hopefully Tuesday when I'm back to work, he has totally forgotten. =) Oh yah, Monday gonna babysit my lil' niece cuz her parents gonna be @ work for the whole day. Omg, who's gonna help me? Hopefully she listens to me. I guess she'll, cuz I dote her so much that she loves me. Every morning she refuse to leave the home to school without me going out together with her. Haa... huggies. BB jia you for your performance tomorrow worx!

Friends of mine who are sick, please take extra care of yourself. May u peeps recover soon.

I hope I'll luv myself more

22:40

04 December 2007

What a scorcher day! Reach the branch felt so warm and humid, thought that they didn't switch on the air-con. Turn on the fan, but the lousy fan took so long to warm up before it really functioning properly. (Anyway, can't blame the fan. Is old and colleagues everyday bump into it, especially FPP =D ) Oh well, let's come back to the main point. Because of the fucking weather that makes me feels so warm @ the corner, I was so damn pek chey. With colleagues chairs blocking the narrow path to the back office really makes my blood boils. CO asked me why was I so moody. I also don't know why, especially I've a long sleep. Just that I didn't really slept well last night.

I realised certain things.

1. Customers who likes me, always praise me.

2. Customers who don't likes me, always complain about me and they gave nasty comments.

3. When I'm moody, I let go my casting

4. When I let go my casting, I sure couldn't balance my cash

Just like today. I found the 19bucks, but couldn't find the other 3bucks and I've got to report. And that gone my quarterly allowance of ***bucks. Hell... because of a 2figures excess, I've to scarified my 3 figures allowance. Is like DAMN IT. Don't u people thing so?

I'm always like this, sucks. So what I've got more vouchers, but I couldn't balance off my cash. But two things to praise myself, is I hit my record in terms of vouchers, 151. Second thing is, we knocked off at 7.45pm. When reach JP, as promised YYC to help her update her POSB bank passbook... is already 8pm++ felt very tired and thought of taking cabby home, but I didn't. I took bus back home. =) Good good, nv any how spend money norhx. Hees.

Stupid me, always take stock never record. Caused SGC to fall down when she coming out to catch the culprits . Sorries!

Sighs, I think that I'm not suitable in this line.

1. I don't like GST (Greet, Smile, Thank You)

4. I don't like to serve people

5. I don't like to answer queries

6. I don't like to see customer black face for nothing

7. I don't like to mystery shop by own colleagues cuz I felt there's no trust

8. I don't like kena scolded by customers for nothing

9. I don't like customers compliments nor complains

If I can find another reason why I don't like about this career line, I think I should really resign.

Anyway, I was being offered an accounts job. Wondering should I resign and go over to his company

I hope I'll luv myself more

21:14

02 December 2007

Today been to the IT fair @ expo together with Kelly and Jie jie family tagging along. Initially was waiting for kelly @ bugis platform but jie jie hungry say wanna go out buy some finger food. Hmm, saw bread papa came out new ice cream, bought green tea, mango and tiramisu with free vanilla. Hmm... 2/5 worx. Not very nice and is ex too.

Then head down to IT fair. Jie jie family went to BK to eat, when Kelly and I squeezing inside the IT fair with other people. I was lost in the IT fair but I just can't do anything as my handphone is with my bro-in-law so I just stood somewhere near the entrance. Kelly saw me... =) I think I shouldn't had pass such a remark to my bro-in-law. But I'm always like this... and I think he was so pissed off by me. Oooo... my apologies, sorries. Anyway, Kelly got herself imation 2GB thumbdrive and a bluetooth ... ... .. Not so bad, at least she got something from the IT fair unlike my jie jie. I know she likes the Sony thumbdrive very much just that she find it a lil' ex. Nvm... I shall get her one when I get my bonus this 15th. Treat it as a X'mas present for her.

Went to Clementi to 've mayo chicken rice recommended by Kelly. Nice nice worx... 4/5 norhx. Think shall find one day bring mummy go there and eat. Hees. Then I was so crazy over the durian puffs that I saw the other day when ordering baby's birthday cake. So asked Valencia to check out the webby for the location @ CT. Head to 325 and who knows that the mini durian puffs sold out and I bought the Ultimate D24 Durian Puffs * 12 in a box. Tell you peeps, don't miss this out. Is really yummilious... drool. I ate up 4 of it, damn... is 1/3 of it. Luckily I brought over half of it to mummy house. Otherwise... I might finish all myself. =D

I hope I'll luv myself more

23:43

01 December 2007

By right, this timing I should be at Zouk celebrating baby birthday. But I end up here is because, they were late... and is 'bout an hour that CH n I been waiting outside with the cake and the surprise that I wanna give her. I was mad with 'em that I lost my control when speaking to 'min. I sincerely apologies, sorry. Hope you understand me, my bad temper. And I find myself so stupid, ask people take cabby down yet end up didn't went it. Actually I wanted to, but because of CH gotta work tomorrow and also the fucking headache killing me since this morning. So I left...

Anyway mummy lady boss asked her continue to work, and she agreed. Frighten me. Haha... but thought is mummy off day... cuz was thinking of asking her to accompany me to BB to get the durian puffs. =)

Alright, that's about all.

Happy Birthday my dearest Kino baby.

I hope I'll luv myself more

01:04